Joey leaves the kitchen and Sally comes to join her for a chat.
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"I overheard you and Joey talking just now."
"Ya...."
"Do you have feelings for Hayden?" Sally asks.
"Sally.....do you hear yourself right now?!"
"I'm just asking, I mean I wanna know why you're this worried about him."
"Because I've been in his spot before." She explained, curling in her lips.
"Unrequited love?"
She nodded.
"Tell me more about it, I know things have been weird between us and it's over but I'm still here to listen."
"Thanks hun....." She paused a while, "Okay well....there was this guy I loved let's call him J and I loved J for a very long time."
"What's a long time?"
"10 years."
"Petal you're not that old...."
"I know and that's the scary part."
"Okay and what happened with J?"
"I loved him with all my heart, he was my everything......he was there for me in my darkest days. He though was stuck on somebody else and that somebody else hurt him, destroyed him and I couldn't do a thing to help him.....so I was stuck just getting the butt end of his anguish and because of how much I loved him, I allowed it all....all the mistreatment and mixed signals and neglect and empty words that he was afraid to feel. He loved me at one point or I would like to believe so but he could never express it.....the only thing he expressed was sadness, was anger.....was nothing. I just had to sit and watch the one I loved love someone else, a someone else he couldn't even have....so neither of us could be with whom we wanted."
"Oh Petal...." Sally reached out and patted her on the back.
"I feel like crying."
"That's okay to cry."
"I know but I don't like to, I'd like to believe I'm stronger than that."
"So then what?"
Petal closed her eyes, "He panicked out of feelings for me, yet it's all I had ever dreamed about....he couldn't bring himself to love me yet I wanted him to, with all I am."
"I'm sorry."
She shrugged, "What can ya do?"
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