It's time for Carla and Hayden to sit down and finally have a talk.
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"Hey, do you mind if I sit here?" Carla asks, standing before the table.
"Go ahead, we need to talk anyway." Hayden says, nodding his head.
She takes a seat with her food and they both awkwardly eat in silence.
The tension is through the fucking roof, all that could be heard was the sounds of emotionally driven chewing.
Once they both finished their meal Carla takes a deep sigh. "I think it's a good idea we have come together to discuss things."
"I agree, I've been holding onto a lot."
"Well today I'm all ears, I want there to be mutual conversation, no fighting." She says.
"I can handle that." Hayden says.
"So, go ahead, the floor is yours."
Hayden inhaled and exhaled the deepest he ever had, his heart was racing and his stomach in knots.
"I want to be open and honest about everything."
"Did you kill-"
"About us...about me." He said cutting her off.
"Okay."
"I felt some weird, sick and twisted thing for you when you got here, fueled by my anger of my past mixed with the knowledge of yours. I then started to actually feel for you and I felt I couldn't compete with Joey but since nothing had really came about I thought maybe I could talk to you about it but Joey just wanted to fight with me, just wanted to put me away and after seeing you two not only share a bed but recently, fuck.....I lost my mind. I don't know why I like you Carla, I don't have a fucking clue but I do and I want to let go, I'm trying to let go because I know you don't feel the same way about me, I'm just delusional. This I know."
Carla just sat there, staring down at her empty plate. "Hayden I....I don't know what to say."
"Take your time."
She sat there a good few minutes before opening her mouth. "I honestly though it was pure and sadistic hatred from you this whole time and I was very wrong, I feel awful about the fighting and the solitary and the sex thing, I really do. I never wanted beef with you, I was though just worried for my life, for my safety and I'm being honest when I say that because I normally can't admit that. I wish I could help you move on from me but I don't know how to do that."
"I know, I have to do it on my own."
"I'm just sorry you have to be here to witness Joey and I together here, in such close quarters all the time."
"Ya it fucking blows.....do you love him?"
"Hayden I'm n-"
"You don't have to say it, never mind I asked." He said, curling in his lips.
"So Hayden I-"
"Do you love him? I'm curious."
"Hayden....."
He shakes his head, "No never mind." He stands from the table, "I'm going to enter myself into solitary for a while, I need to be alone."
"Really? You'd do that?"
"I gotta escape you somehow."
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